God, i lost 'it' today.
We fought again. When i got into our bedroom, i took the penknife and started playing violin on my left wrist before him, 23 crimson valleys came pouring down, he quickly came over and smacked me really hard on my head, but it felt like a kiss. My heartache suspend as he was cleaning up my wound and wiping away my tears. I felt so cold and numb as i stood there. Even until now. I didn't wanted to wait for you anymore, so the morning star emerged from within and whispered sweet words into my ears. Everything happened very quickly in a moment, the next thing i realized, i saw red. And so here i am now, brewing this cup of coffee with bullets. Help me. Love me.
I love you. I can't let you go. I won't let you go. Never ever.
